I'm so so depressed...
I feel so alone, my head do not notice the people around..
Well, maybe it's because there is no people around..

I't soo long time ago i felt like this for the first time, and I haven't felt like this for a long time..
It was the time I always cried when I was alone.. I do now, again..
I hate to whine, I don't like it, I really don't but it seems that I can't stop..
So maybe it'll help if I start to write it down, for someone random to come an think " what a looser".. Well, you're right. '

I'm feeling down, depressed and lonely.. So lonely, I'm always lonely in my mind..

What I hate the most about being lonely is the cold.. I get so cold when I feel lonely, in fact my body is cold all the time.. It gets me worried when I have to sleep, I always think that I'm gonna wake up dead? Huh? But somehow I do every morning.. Wake up dead.. Sometimes I wish I woke up dead for good.. Never to see the sun again, never to touch anyone again.. It would make me happy in some way.. Then I would fy around my loved ones as a happy soul.. I would kiss my dear goodnight each time the dark hours were on the way.. I would wish him to be happy without me, with the cutest and most beautyfull girl in the world.. And I would smile at them, because that's the way it's ment to be..

I think I'm sick, some day I'll just kill myself, I'll do it with my thoughts.. The thoughts I love.. The ones who are gonna kill me.. Eat me up from the inside..

I'm not worthy this life..

Sorry the bad english and the stupid words.. You clicked yourself.